Blog 1494 -10-21-2019
What I Believe
Our default setting is success and happiness. For twenty years I tried the atheist, all is random chance route, after rebelling from, fleeing, and freeing myself from a narrow Christian Fundamentalist box. But, I learned that in my case that I had thrown the Baby out with the wash, and not by chance I came back to the plan and discovered my higher power again, not the angry God of vengeance and bloody sacrifice of the Bible but my higher best self. I no longer think of myself as religious person but as a spiritual person, a thinking and believing person.
We, each one of us, decides what is “our truth” and for even all those years that I tried to be an atheist I had hanging in my closet an embroidered Christmas motto that read simply, “I Believe.” The theme song from the movie “Alfie” (both incarnations actually), you know the one that starts, “What’s it all about, Alfie? Is it just for the moment we live?” goes on to say, “Something even non-believers can believe in. I believe in love, Alfie.”
As the Cowardly Lion of Oz repeated, “I do believe, I do believe I do, I do, do.” He might have been trying to convince himself but I am not. If I have learned anything, and that point might be debated by some, I have learned this that anything we have to try all that hard at to keep believing in, be that Christianity, Atheism, or a myriad of other religious, political, and or philosophical choices, that one belief is just not for us. When we find our happy place, under the spout where the blessing come out, everything seems to fit nice and easy.
Most of our strife, stress, and trouble comes from fighting the current, trying to swim against the stream, complaining about our job, our spouse, our children, opposing our “enemies” and even worse being our own worst enemy. I have quoted it often but will again, the first intention of Ten Intentions for a Better World:
“I refrain from opposing or harming anyone. I allow others to have their own experience. I see life in all things and honor it as if it were my own. I support life.”
There is a buoyancy to Spirit (I believe we all share One Spirt) and that hope floats. Ego, that puny man-made false god would weigh us down with “the cares of this life and the deceitfulness of riches”, to use Jesus’ words, but we were made to rise above all that crap. We were made to fly. We do not even need a bell to ring, Clarence, to try our wings.
R. Kelly is today and has been for some time embroiled in a lot of trouble apparently of his own making and he will answer for all that but one of his early songs, “I Believe I Can Fly” stirred my heart and even though I was trying very hard to be an atheist, at the time it came out, I believe my heart, whispered, “Amen.” That is how we know we have found our truth. Fight it as hard as we might try. It will out us from whatever closet we try to hide in, and float us to the top. I believe in my own and your higher self.
Your friend and fellow traveler,