Blog 2395 – 02.13.2022
My Sunshine, My Sweet Dream, My Forever Sweetheart
The song goes, “You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray. You’ll never know dear how much I love you. Please don’t take my sunshine away!”
My sunshine, my lovely, loving, and oh so lovable wife, has not been herself for several days. The doctors are not sure just why she is behaving so differently. She is in the hospital and yesterday morning she did not know me and told the nurse, “He does not belong here.” She is only allowed one visitor per day and I was at such a loss all day yesterday trying to run a few needed errands and also trying to get a little more rest and food than I had watching over her during an almost twenty-four ED (Emergency Department) adventure full of lots of tests and little answers.
Ours has been an exciting thirty-three year journey thus far with many twists and turns in the road and our share of bumps. January 31st was the anniversary of our first date together. I had hoped to take her out to dinner and dancing back then, but she said she needed to attend a wake at her sister’s home. Her sister’s close friend’s husband had passed. My sweetheart has always been there for those she loves and asked if I would go with her. I said, “Yes, of course” and did not say it then but thought it, “to the ends of the earth if you will just let me.”
I hope my sweetheart comes back to me and so I am hoping this turns out to be just one more bump in the road of our continuing honeymoon road trip. One of our favorite movies is What Dreams May Come, the story of soulmates divided by tragic death, but who against all the odds find each other again. My wife has ask me more than once that if she was like the lady in the movie, lost and out of her mind, if I would go to hell to find her. Yes, my forever Sweetheart, yes. I believe it is very likely that we have already found each other through countless lives and will for many many more lives and dreams yet to come. But, as long as this one last I will stay as near to you as you will let me for the only hell I believe in is a world without you in it.
Hold on, Sweetheart, and when it does come time for us to part ways briefly, remember we will find each other again and again and live out a million more dreams together. I hope our journey here together is not over just yet but nevertheless, “ I’m gonna love you, like nobody’s loved you, come rain or come shine.”
Your friend and fellow traveler,
A Million Dreams