The Worst Thing You Ever Did

Blog 86 – 8.4.15

Would you want to be remembered for the worst thing you ever did? Probably not, most of us have done things we are not proud of and the rest of us are tributes to the power of denial. This was the message of Jesus when he said how can you take the speck out of your brother’s eye when you have a beam or log in your own eye.

Like cars and trucks we all have blind spots, those areas often near to us hidden from our view. Fortunately like those little spot mirrors with the wide angle view, like looking at a baby moon hub cap. the people around us reflect our blind spots. The things that upset us most about others are those blind spots in our lives reflected back at us.

In post to a dear friend recently whose father had just died I wrote that the most exasperating thing for fathers about their sons is that they see so much of themselves in their sons and hope for so much more. It is also a truism that what children fear most is becoming their parents. I am much like my father and mother. Whenever I come across a situation and do not know what to do or say what mom or dad would have done is my default mode. I am not perfect nor were my parents. But every parent’s dream is that their children will copy their highest and best traits and build on them and ignore and not replicate their weaknesses and faults. Alas, it rarely works out that way.

I think, that we like Jesus and Spock are all “half breeds”, God and Man, Vulcan and Human. To belabor the metaphor a bit, I think we are as Adam in the creation story, made out of earth with the wonderful breath of the Divine within us. It is put more poetically in a verse attributed to the Apostle Paul, “We have this treasure in earthen vessels that the excellency might be of God.” The Native Americans taught that God, the Spirit in the Sky, is our Father, and that the Earth is our Mother. How similar that heritage seems to the Son of God in the New Testament. God, the Spirit, and Mary, the earth girl, had a baby. “As he was so are we in this world.”

It takes some effort on our part to allow our higher self to reign in our thoughts and our actions. It is, I think, more a matter of surrender than of fighting. Even fighting ego or temptation only strengthen their hold. The thoughts we hold become things in our lives. If we think life is a struggle and then we die, guess what, that is what we get. “Be it into you even according to your faith.”(i.e. What you think or believe.)

But back to the worst thing you or I have ever done, the Unforgivable Sin if you will. It is I think not so much an act as it is a thought. A terrible thought and I am not talking about lusting after that attractive person or murdering you wife, husband, children or others in your thoughts but the really dangerous one – thinking you are unloveable, unworthy, unattractive. It is a lie of the worst order. Don’t believe it for a minute. And when that evil bitch of a bird tries to make a nest in your mind don’t fight her just smile and say, “Silly Rabbit, tricks are for kids. I am a grown up and I know Who and Whose I am. I am loved perfectly and I know naturally how to love perfectly starting with me, then others, then Everything, even you silly bird for reminding me that some of my beloved brothers are still buying your bull corn and I need to remind them Who and Whose they are.”

And if you can’t remember all that just smile and shine you gorgeous, beloved, and oh so deserving being you.

Your friend and fellow traveler,
David White

People believe all kinds of things and what we choose to think, to believe, is our truth, our reality

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